The End of an Era

I suspect most of you aren't aware of this, but for the last 2-3 months, I have been fighting a battle with a crafty enemy. Actually he may not be crafty, but I'd rather not admit to extreme stupidity >_>

It was a close battle, with a lot of back and forth, and he always seemed to have the slightest upper hand. Nonetheless, I refused to retreat or surrender. Despite my best efforts though, I lost that battle today.

What am I talking about? My laptop, good sirs. Around winter break time, I caught a virus (I have no idea how) that started messing with and redirecting links on google searches. There was an easy enough workaround to this, but it irked me that I had this thing. With help from you guys (mostly Luke), I pulled together an assortment of anti-spyware/malware software and went after the bastard. Indeed, for a while, it looked like I had driven him out. Then one night, I found that I was wrong. As I was working, a series of error windows started to pop up as the virus tramped through my registry deleting critical files. I managed to turn the comp off and do a system restore, but I knew then that I was in for a nasty haul.

This sort of thing has been happening regularly for several weeks now. On Monday, though, without any warning, I lost everything in the Documents and Settings folder. Nothing crucial, but I was finally starting to get legitimately worried. I backed up everything (finished yesterday night) and was more or less content. Unfortunately, this morning, following a regular shutdown sequence, Windows fails to boot. To make matters worse, the virus had taken out both Safe Mode and System Restore. In short, I am completely shot.

It's kind of sad that I'm writing an entry on fighting a virus, but it's pretty valid. I've had the laptop since sophomore year of high school, and I value it a lot. I'm going to have to get a new one now, and it actually makes me kind of sad. Luckily, one thing won't be changing - my desktop background (yes, I saved it =P).

In any case, until this new machine shows up, my access is pretty much limited to computer labs here, so don't expect me to be online, and if you need to reach me, call.

~jnub

Subject: Wow... okay, I wasn't sure if I was ever going to tell anyone about this,

but it's late and I'm sleep deprived so i guess I'll just write it now and
regret it in the morning

First of all, - just for some background: My mom died right when I was born,
(she was actually really, really hot- but this isn't about her. I guess that's
messed up to say, but whatever.) I actually grew up with my dad's family,
because my dad has all sorts of emotional issues and he bailed before I was
born. So you can see, my childhood was really kind of messed up.

Anyways, growing up I feel like there was always a lot of distance between me
and my sister. When I was about 17 or 18 I first noticed that my sister was a
hottie.

I don't want to go into to many details about it, but basically what happened is
that I accidentally found a video that she made of herself. I knew she didn't
make it for me- but I thought she was so beautiful that I watched it twice.
(probably would have watched it a hell of a lot more, except that like right
around the time I found the video, all this crazy :!: went down and I had to
leave home. (My dad's family who I was staying with got in bad trouble with the
law. I never talk about it).

Sooo... I was totally lusting after my sister at that point. She was also having
bad trouble with the law. She was actually in custody when I left home.

My friend and I went to go pick her up. When I saw her that day, after seeing
the video, I have to be honest, I just wanted to frak her brains out. Looking
back on it now, it's pretty messed up- but I think she had feelings for me too.
She actually kissed me right after we came to get her... and it wasn't a
sisterly kiss, you know? I mean, it wasn't like ridiculously sexual or
anything, but it definitely wasn't sisterly.

After we left, we all went to crash with my Sister's friends. On the trip there,
my friend sort of implied that he wanted to get with my Sister, and I got a
little jealous. He's a good looking guy- and even though she was my sister- I
just felt like he was competition. Not much else happened between us for a
while except some maybe-sexy hugging.

Pretty much everyone in my life at that point was wanted by the government, so
we all moved around a lot. I'm not saying that I'm proud of it or anything, but
it was kind of an awesome time.

My friend and my sister never hooked up I don't think- but I thought there was
some serious sexual tension going on between them. It was around that time that
I got really badly hurt in an accident. It was messed up. I almost died. But
when I was in recovery my sister came to see me, and out of the clear blue sky
she started gives me this awesome, slow, passionate kiss on the lips.

Sadly (although, I guess for the best) nothing ever came of it. We spent some
time apart... and I started to get really religious, so I tried not to think of
her that way. It was actually going well for a long time- like I was totally
over her. But I have to say, like a year or so after all that stuff went down,
we were out sailing (not like a date or anything romantic like that), and she
was wearing like the hottest bikini I've ever seen and it brought back all the
old feelings. Sigh.

A little while later she actually wound up with my friend from before (the
sexual tension guy). I can't say I was surprised.

But even after she was shacking up with my friend, there was one time we were at
a party... my friend was inside, and my sister and I were outside alone. It was
a really intimate moment. I think something might have happened, except that I
killed the mood when I told her that Darth Vader was our father and that I had
to go face him.